The Day After My Trip to the Emergency Room: Leaning into My Design, Learning to Surrender

Even as a Line 2, I struggling to sit still … I love my solitude, but being still is something that challenges me.

I am a 6/2 Manifesting Generator with a ton of energy in my chart. 

It’s only when I get deeply dialed into specific aspects of my work and what truly lights me up that I feel the pull to be still and focused. When that switch goes off, I can get locked in thanks to my defined Channel 9–52.

Otherwise, my body craves motion. 

Even when I meditate, I often prefer that my meditations are moving ones.

Learning to Be Still and Leaning into My Intuition

That being said, I am learning to sit still with a grounded intention right now and letting both my mind and body surrender to what is. 

As I shared in an earlier post, I found myself at the emergency room due to a faulty glucose monitor and my intuition. As a result, this defining moment cracked open the answers I have desperately been seeking. 

You can read the previous article here:

https://www.candybarone.com/blog/how-a-faulty-glucose-monitor-my-intuition-and-a-trip-to-the-er-gave-ne-the-answers-i-needed

Now, I find myself listening and trusting the guidance from my functional doctor to rest and to allow my body space to heal. Having a chronic virus in your body is no joke … and, I need time to just let me body do it’s thing.

That being said, I rescheduled all my client sessions and podcast interview for my show, and I’m laying on the coach letting myself just be. 

I also am working with a protocol to get my immune system stronger. 

So, I’m bouncing between baseball games and Jeopardy, along with checking out the Apple+ series: Shrinking as I love Brett Goldstein and am the biggest Ted Lasso fan. So far, I am loving the show!

Over the course of this weekend, I am hoping to feel stronger signs of more sustainable energy … and, I am being extra gentle with myself, especially if I find myself starting to feel overly restless. 

Even in the work that I do, I still am learning to integrate and create greater embodiment. I am a student, as well as a teacher … as we all are. 

Right now it’s about full surrender … trusting in what my body needs, and just being in the moment. Continuing to listen to my intuition and leaning into my truth. My body knows what she needs. I am just here to provide the right resources and restoration to help her heal. 

Taking My Healing Deeper into My Human Design

When life throws me curveballs and bigger challenges, I find myself going into and contemplating my Human Design. 

You see, I have strong markers that support this current journey … two big ones, in fact, being around my own vitality and creating real embodiment (for instance, Gate 58 lives in my conscious North Node, and Gate 46 is stationed in both my conscious and unconscious Pluto). 

These are only two of the markers that highlight these themes in my chart.

Along with those, I also have markers that guide me in learning how to release the need to control everything in my life, attachment to outcomes and how I get there, and high functioning codependent cycles.

Patience and surrender as a Manifesting Generator wired the way I am with six centers and six channels (two being format channels) defined is not something that comes easy to me. 

I look at moments like these as opportunities to lean into the lessons within my own soul contract … for they are here to teach me, guide me, and help me tap into deeper wisdom to lead my life more intentionally.

Human Design has so much insight to offer us in our quest and journey back home to ourselves … everything from how we work, rest, and play best, to how we fuel our bodies, to how we navigate stress. 

It also shows us markers for potential challenges, such as depression, diabetes, scoliosis (which I was diagnosed with at age 12), additive tendencies (Gate 46 being one example that highlights this … again, this show up in my chart twice, as it’s stationed in both aspects of my Pluto).

Needless to say, we came into this world with our own operating plan, a personalized energy map of how we are designed to function optimally. 

The problem is we often get caught up listening to someone else’s advice on what we need to take care of our own bodies. 

Our bodies know us best. 

When we tune in and listen, it has a lot to say. It has the answers we need. 

I am learning this more and more. 

As both a teacher and ongoing student of Human Design, I find every day brings me greater clarity. It also brings me a mirror to peer into my own truth. I find myself being challenged with what I think I know to be true and what I believe … thus, allowing myself to be open to new learnings.

Because, when you are ready, Human Design is a powerful tool here to guide you back home … to you. And, just as I had (and still have) my teachers and guides to help me navigate the nuances of my design, I am here to be a guide for those ready to dive into their chart, as well.

We are entering into a new consciousness and era of evolution. We are being challenged to show up and lead differently. What we’ve come to know up to this point is not what carry us forward into this next venture.

Before we can fully engage in the leadership revolution already underway, we must first learn how to come back to ourselves, and our truth. 

I know Human Design and Gene Keys are the tools to help us do just that. 

I have experienced it firsthand and I have work with thousands of clients who would tell you the same. 

It’s helping me navigate what’s needed as I address this chronic virus that has been reactivated in my body. I am finding great peace in that

We are in this thing called life together. 

And, it is both our individual and collective responsibility to heal. To heal old patterns, mindsets, and beliefs. To heal old narratives and broken systems. To heal our bodies, relationships, and generational lineage.

Healing is part of the work we are here to do right now on this planet. We each are here as a unique piece of the Cosmic Puzzle, here to do our part. For this is why we chose to be here at this point in time.

How do you begin … well, that’s actually pretty simple …

All it takes is a little curiosity and openness to something new. If this is you, let’s chat … I’d be honored to guide you through this exploration

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